First of November. It was my blog fifth birthday and I was not able to upload this blogpost. My laptop finally said goodbye and so did my health condition.
Twenty years of being a full time flight attendant(read the anniversary blogpost here), five years of full time blogging and two years of commuting has left me in a physical state where my batteries are more than empty. A simple cold kept sick for more than four weeks and I was not able to recover even with medication. I realised it was my body screaming S-T-O-P. So I let down everything. I had to. I’ve been in a constant struggle juggling two full time jobs. And the thing is that I really love both of them. But my mental and physical condition went down the hill with each flight Instagram post.
It was time to let go. Just for a short amount of period. And I had to learn it the hard way. Listen to your body and take your time. I repeatedly had a cold which turned into a serious sinusitis. No fun. My head was a hot mess. I was drowning in worries and couldn’t stop thinking about posting, engagement, stories and mails. I`d put such a huge pressure on myself and had anxiety attacks that left me sleepless many nights. In those moments, I wished my life back before Instagram. It was a carefree life without thinking about posting times, comments, likes and followers. But I chose this way. I had my dark moments, when I wanted to give up asking myself why I do this blogging thing. Investing so much time with almost no ROI(return on investment) didn’t seem to make any sense to me. And I know that I’m not the only one struggling. Those happy days, when you could post any photo taken with your cell phone with no filter and getting reposts and thousand of likes, are gone now. But I`m not giving up yet.
I`m a one woman business since I started my blog five years ago. It`s been a great journey. But this journey comes also with sacrifices. Talk about precious life time, tons of stress, huge pressure and mental/phsyical health. I’m just being very honest with you. It`s not always the glam you see in the photos and stories. There is so much work behind one post and a single story. And I’m not here to complain. I’m here to celebrate the milestone of five years of blogging with you! :)
I wanted to post this blogpost exactly on November first when my blog baby turned 5! So sorry that I’m late, but hey, better late than never. ;) Can you believe that I’m already blogging for five years? I’m more than grateful for this journey and I’ve only come so far because of YOU and your support! I know there are so many followers from day one and I thank you so much for your love. I’m trying my best to put out content that inspires you to be the best version of yourself and adds value to your life. It was not easy, but I kept thriving. One day, I was listening to a podcast by The Skinny Confidential and they talked about content and followers. The main question should be always how can I serve you. And yes, I always think about how I can add value to my content. It`s about sharing and supporting each other. Even if the Instagram algorithm is not loving me, I will not stop creating and sharing. And now it`s time to give back!
I prepared five boxes(5th blog birthday) full of goodies that will hopefully add some value to your makeup/skincare life. Two watches and premium products are randomly in five boxes. The first one who comments on this blogpost will receive the first box. :) Three others will be chosen next Monday, December 16, and will be shipped the next day. I will also choose one follower from my Instagram post. Just tell me which category you like the most on my blog/Instagram and you are in it to win it! It can be skincare, makeup, travels, aviation, stories, motivational talk and many other topics. Can’t wait to read your comments.
Make also sure you like the giveaway post on Instagram and to follow my account @theclassycloud.
Thanks again for being a part of this journey and following me around the world in my best and worst moments. So much love for my sweet followers. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!
First of November was also the day when I swapped the base from Munich back to Frankfurt two years ago. Even though I have to commute, it was the best decision ever. Here is my love letter to FRA.
My love FRA,
It`s been already two years since I`m back in Frankfurt. And my heart is still bursting with so much love when I think back of the first day I put my heels on the floor at the base. I missed the hustle and bustle of FRA base so much. Oh boy, I’m sobbing while I’m writing this letter. But these are happy tears. I couldn’t stop smiling when I walked around the base waiting for my first briefing to Bogota back in Frankfurt. I saw all the lovely faces of my regional flight attendants and was breathing in all the global vibes of my base FRA. That’s what I call diversity and inclusivity. And do you remember FRA, what happened during the briefing? I was so overwhelmed when I introduced myself and told the crew that I’m back, that I burst into happy tears! I couldn’t help but crying because I was so happy to be back. Back in your arms FRA. Tears of happiness, joy and the feeling of being…home.
You are my mothership when I started as a regional Korean flight attendant 20 years ago. You loved me from the beginning and you are still here for me. I never had a bad experience so far and I’m so grateful for the coolest colleagues on my fave airplane A380. Even though it took some time to open up myself and trust again, you never gave up on me FRA. It feels like nothing has changed. I had so many lovely moments when I bumped into old colleagues and they didn’t change either. Nothing can describe this feeling of pure joy, relief, gratitude and love for you FRA. I was in awe each briefing when pursers talked about trust and support on the same eye level. The feeling of being appreciated and included created such a strong teamwork and I loved every moment of it. Yes, I’m home. You made me feel home again FRA. You were always there waiting for me regardless. Your love helped me to be myself again and I thank you so much for your unconditional love.
It has been two wonderful years and I can`t wait to spend more time with you FRA. My heart is more than full. And I love you so much!
(The breakup letter to MUC is here.)